Fckn_insomniac

I MADE A NEW JOURNAL..JUST CAUSE I GOT TIRED OF THE OLD ONE..IM NOT SURE WHY..BUT I JUST DID... MY NEW ONE IS I THINK fckn_insomniac ...so i'll check this one for a while to see if everyone got the message...so i'll be usin that one so leave a comment either here or there to tell me if you got my new one okay...lots of love.

so hey everyone!! i love and miss you all. so i got online i was like eh okay i guess/ semi happy.. then i got online and then i became sad *sigh*.. oh well whatever..im really feelin bad now. i need a huge hug. so nothins really been happin'n..but i think that i should start off with last wednesday cause i don't think that i updated since then..wait i think that i did..but i just found a picture that me nick and dot took at the mall that says sweethearts around it..it's hilarious. well my mom got a new tahoe on sunday night..its tight i love it. um my life is really boring..and im playin pokemon blue version on my game boy advance so yeah im a nerd. so um leave me a comment and everyone i love you so much..im glad ur back angelina. newman im sorry that you don't have a license..but hey neither do i. brad im sorry about ur beard. ali im gonna miss you when you go to chandler and anyone else who updated and i didn't mention..you have my sympathies. well im gonna stop now caue im talkin about a whole lot of nothing. i heart u.

a few questions!

Do want it missonary with your feet cramed to the head board
Do want it from the back with your face
in the pillow so you could yell as loud as you want to
Do you want it on the floor, do want it in the chair
do you want it over here, do want it over there
Do you want it in your pussy, do you want it in your ass
(I could give you anything you can handle)

so yeah today was the last day of school...im so damn happy except that im gonna miss all of my friends..well i already am..i hate not being at school..not the scholastic part..but the social part im gonna miss the most..i love you guys..you make me who i am and that's wonderful cause i love me. so we finished all of our finals today..i think that i might have failed a couple of my finals. but after school we fuckin stud in line to sell back our books for 2 hours!! omg i wanted to kill myself. but i pushed through it cause i knew that we were gonna go hang out at the mall after school. It was britney, nick, jessica, dodt and i that went. marliss and maria were gonna go but they couldn't and angelina was gonna go but then at like the last moment when we were waiting in line she decided to leave. which made me very sad cause we were gonna have so much fun. we've never got the chance to really hang out after school...i think that is what we really need. but she decided to leave..i wonder what that's all about??!!?!?! Huh angelina..what are you too cool for us losers?!? jk. you shoulda came we had so much fun, from buying really small condoms at spencers then dropping them on the ground and watching the old lady looking at them to nick cussing out the 8 year old bitches that tried to start a fight with us..it was a blast..wish that you coulda went. well whatever maybe this or next week. but yeah so im definetly gonna miss all of you. i wont get to spend all day with you lovely bunch of people which is absolutly gonna break my heart so keep in touch here.. cell# 602-574-1159.. and then we can hang out. so im gonna go now but i love ya all..and angelina holla at me! Newman i heart u!

hey everyone. just to let you all know..i think that you are all lovely. so yeah im really tired and im really sorry that i have not updated in a long time but i've been kinda busy with not studying and graduations and shit like that. but so yeah i failed my english and physics finals today and tomorrow is gonna be okay cause it's just geometry and spanish..which im not really frettin either of those cause they are kinda semi easy but you never know so im studyin a little for the hell of it. i gotta get good grades or i'll get my ass kicked. so yeah i love most of you out there.and i hope that you are all doin really well on your exams. mr. burke is dumb and im so glad that i don't have to have anymore classes with him...ALLELUIA!! im not sure if that's how you spell it but you should get what im tryin to say..but so yeah have a great time and good nite to all..i love ya!

yeah um wow im tired..i just got back from eloy..and for all of you who do not know..which is probabaly all of you..this place is 5,000 times as ghetto as casa grande. i had to go there for a graduation of one of my friends/cousins and whatever..but yeah it's ghetto..but hey what about my life isn't. i mean look at me..i got a ghetto booty, i live in cg, and idk i just am ghetto..not toooo ghetto but i still am. anyways i never ask how any of you are doing.........did you think that i was actually gonna ask you.....i mean has it not occured to any of you that i can't stand your ass' i mean look...no im just playin i love you all..so tomorrow in another day of school but a major plus..i don't have to go to football tomorrow cause im gonna leave earlier because i have to go to another graduation in TUCSON!@! omg will it ever end....but it's my god sister and i love her to death..just like if she were newman. um yeah so school still sucks..im on the verge of possibly failing a good majority of all of my classes...no not really but im not in that good of a spot like i used to be...a straight a student...in elementry school and a b average student in freshman year..well needless to say that has all changed. but i still love me. wow it's late so im gonna go to bed..i love you all..yes even you brad..i love you too!!!

bow down..bow down..bow down..bow down to a playa that's greater than you...well now that that is outta my system..first of all..WHATS GOIN ON ALL OF MY PEEPS!!??!?! i love you all and many more and some people i hate..but most people that are reading this i love so you're probably okay...but anyways..today was okay i guess im not gonna go into detail because well um it mostly consisted of school and well that never changes except for the ocassional..um..change? yeah...you know what i mean right?!? well anyways i chilled for most of the day because im a playa like that..just kiddin..but i did chill cause i always do..i was asked to lick brians nipple today...but i didn't for a fear of christina..doesn't she look like a tough bitch..jk i'd probably get my ass kicked by her if she ever were to fight me so im not gonna talk shit..um football..wow..that never changes..i still have a dislike for it..that will never change as well..but on the way home we had to get gas and my mom went like to sunlakes or somethin like ocotillo and got gas there..why idk.but she did and we were gonna get a bite to eat at micky d's because..well um it's a long drive to cg and we wouldn't have time to make comida para comer..but then we saw native new yorker and were like um wings..a hu hu huu huh!! yum but don't tell my dad cause he thinks that we came home after goin to the hospitol where my mom works...but whatever the wings were delicious..now im gonna have a hella hard time at practice because i ate like a fat ass bitch tonight..so im dead tomorrow at practice but what ev..um nothin else really to say..and if any of you are reading this then i suggest that you go to bed after studying for finals of course because it is rather late and we are growing individuals and we require sleep to function..what the hell i sound like a motha fuckn mom..well nighty night anywho!!

yeah so here i am updating because i am giving into peer presure and also newman told me that i would be a punk bitch and that she would beat the shit out of me if i did not update tonight..so for fear of getting the shit beat out of me..here i am...hum?!? what to write..what to write.. well i was really scared today because i didn't have my geom..but oh well but more so because i had to present my world hist project and i was so nervous but i think that i did okay, i went long enough, well i don't know if it was long enough but it was long enough for me..i was only expecting to be like um hi im zach and i did aids and africa and then get off and start to cry..but i got through it so whatever at least it's done..then i was scared for football because im not in shape and i didn't know what to expect from spring ball but i got through that too. so now here i am drinking lots of water folding clothes talkin to my peeps(only newman) listenin to musica watchin gilmore girls and i don't know what else. well i think that overall this week i think that i was mentally and emotionally satisfied..im not gonna update saying how much better i feel because of a certain situation that well whatever..im just not that kinda person..well i think that im gonna go now im kinda hungry and i haven't eaten anything all day so im gonna go eat some fideo..mexican food that's like a spaghetti noodle that is just a little thinner and it's cooked in tomato sauce con onions celantro pico de gallo and idk what else cause im tired so there newman are you satisfied now that i have updated?!?!?

arrrgggghhhh!!!! i hate this shit..im so sorry.

yeah so today was kinda okay except for that we had to go to school...that's not all that good. mr nowe is still weird and talks in tounges..and says that same damn prayer in latin..its fuckin annoying you would think that he would say a different prayer of even in a different language. well m to the kizzo's class still sucked. except that i just remembered that he wasn't there..oh that's right dr.hobbs rocks ass..he's funny cause he is british or whatever and he's just straight crazy right ?!? j.mo's class was fun cause lindz and i sat together and talked to ms.mo. so my next to classes sucked it was just mr.burke and mrs. bitch..i mean rich.. then the shehster's class was okay cause we just talked the whole time and weight training was fun. but yeah so newman is being nosey and tryin to find out who it is that i like now, no not her, but whatever im not gonna tell her. this girl is so fly so cool and so fine! but so i didn't really talk to that many people today like i usually do..yeah i did never mind..i have nothing else to say but that i love most of you out there..no just playin i love you all see ya tomorrow..zachypoo

P.S. hey newman. can i get a ride in ur safari?! haha!

so today is definetly mothers day..one of my favorite holidays..yeah right..but so nothin exciting ever happens to me and im gonna die tomorrow cause i drank like 20 soda's today and ate way to much...im gonna look like mr. grindy..which when you think about it isn't that bad..he's not that bad looking..he has this strange sex appeal..Just playin. but for reals i am gonna be humungous..so i went to church today and then to my nana (grandmother for all the gringo's out there, i still love ya though) and we ate alot there tons of mexican food..then after that we came home and my mom went over to my aunts for a mom only brunch well and daughters..at least my sister got out of my hair..bitch..jk i love her so much. then i took a long nap when i got home while my mom was gone. when i woke up she got home and then we went to my other nana's to have like a cook out thing. when i got there we had a water ballon fight and we played some east side base ball at the park. all east side was there . then after that my cousins were makin fun of cheerleades and doin some cheers. hah. good times then i ate so much carne asada, fajita meat and ribs. and chocolate cake. then after that we went outside for a good ol' time on the porch on the east side listen' to mexican cumbia's and lowrider oldies and just had a real great time that was so much fun. after that my mom went out with my tia's ( aunts) and some others i don't know who cause she hasn't come home yet but oh well. so i watched tv. talked to newman, marliss, dodt, and maybe someone else idk. but so now im drink soda numero 21. ah. im hooked but whatever and im listenin once again to lowrider oldies/slowjams. yeah ali and angelina know what im talkin about. Good times.. despite all the ghettoness i love cg, cause if it wasn't for cg i wouldn't be me i might be some prick ass stuck up fake mexican foo who kisses alotta ass. and i nor anyone else would want that right?!? well im gonna go cause i gotta do some homework i think. nite

Yeah so i haven't updated in a while..well this is my story i tried to like thursday or something and i was completely done with the damn update and then i pushed this button or something then it erased causing me to punch my computer and go to sleep..so im sorry but eh..my life is really boring. so yeah i don't remember what i last said but well we recently got ouy yearbooks! woo! i don't really care for them that much so there was a lack of enthusiasm..could you tell?!? probabably not..but anyways so nothing has really happened to me recently but hey at least im still me and fun! but so today i did nothing but cleaned and helped my dad paint and stuff then i drove to ACE hardware but they were closed so i had to go to homedepot!! it smells funky in there and i bought some caucking or something...lol...then i bought a new sharpy so that i can sign some yearbooks...i wonder who the 1st person is gonna be whom i will sign with my new sharpie?!? im so excited..i just can't hide it! so i ate panda express today as well as chili enchiladas...i took like 30 min's to do my teeth today i flossed twice brushed 3 times and i floride rinsed..yeah for oral hygene...but it sucks..so this dude next door is partyin next door and it's makin me want to fart cause my mom said that i couldn't go over which sucks cause tit looks like fun...so tomorrow is mother's day and i didn't get my mom shit..like always which isn't good..i love her so that count's right? but yeah tomorrow is gonna be borin and then we have school..AHHH i don't want to go because school sucks..and i hate some of my teachers and alica iorio. just a note of people whom have to sign my yearbook...BRAD, NEWMAN, ALI, BRIAN,MEGAN, ROB..and anyone else cause i love everyone so if you want to sign mine you can...and if you want to sign it twice well then go ahead...gotta go im tired and stuff

well yeah so casa grande is right ghetto..not playin netha..i mean in the past week two houses in my neighborhood were robbed and so now im gettin my nine and im ready to bust a cap...na for reals i had to get my gun out cause the niggas next door are gettin high as some motha fuckas...well i just thought that i'd let you go and now im gonna go..so c ya.

so today we went on retreat, that just really sucks to me. i hate goin on retreats, instead of getting closer to god, it makes me want to slit my throat. so yeah i had alot of fags in my small group..maybe it was because i was group 4 and our symbol was a rainbow..YEah for bein gay..not. WoW. so we were playing spin the bottle..well we were spinning it at least..i didn't get to..but there was no actual kissing?!? Ali knows what im talkin about;). then we asked ms. engel to play and she was like no. so she is officially a party pooper. i told her that i was gonna pray for her, i still haven't done that..im gonna do it now...(1 minuet later) okay i still didn't do it but it's the thought that counts, i got distracted cause i found a jelly bean on the ground. so i don't want to go to school tomorrow because it's school and i have to go to geometry and physics and spanish and english and..well all of my other classes. but at least i get to see Newman in 1st, 2nd and 3rd. Yahoo!! forks look funny and david letermen needed to get braces like 500 years ago to close up that gap..and bob barker needs to get a new microphone. just for your information..doritos and hot sauce are really good but not cheetos..speakin of tos..kochis needs to not wear sandal ever again, not because his toes look weird, it possible that they do but the real reason is because he is a-rab. yeah that's right a-rab. eh.well i have nothing else to say cause all that i did after school was sleep and talk to no one except for NiCk. woo-hoo..that's exciting..well i love doo doo..and newmans asian food box purse thingy.

wow so where do i begin...oh yeah today sucked major ass..i could tell it was gonna be like a really bad day, with it raining and all, it's like i could feel it in the air that cold chill that reaches deep down into ur bones and gives you the goosebumps...yeah you know that feelin, one of those days when you know you're gonna fell like shit all day and that it's only gonna get worse just like mine did, unfortunately..

so yeah wednesday was one of the greatest days that i spent with angelina, as we came as close as we did..she knows what im talkin about,nothin sick or anything like that. but then here came today. i woke up scared like a little bitch about our relationship. so like all day i was tryin to avoid her cause like a dumb ass motherfucker i couldn't just confront her with my problems and tell her face to face like i should just done instead of beating around the bush and makin up some bullshit so that i wouldn't have to tell her how i really felt.

so i was feelin really bad and still am. i wanna be with angelina but i'm not good enough for her.. she deserves someone who wouldn't have those feelings, and that would just tell her whenever he had a problem, im not kiddin i really don't deserve to even be friends with her cause i did a little bitch ass thing that isn't fair..omg now im cryin.. and if you read this angelina, i don't want you to feel sorry for me, nor should you cause i did somethin so stupid i should just go to hell.. it's not fair to you that i feel this way.. i just got scared of bein with you..idk what the fuck im talkin about or even if anything that im saying makes sense, but what i do know is that no matter what i say you are always gonna be special to me and i'll always be there..and if you don't understand what im sayin then i think that you should call me and tell me if you really wanna hear the truth about what happened after school today. it's not fair to you..at all..i am so sorry, beyond belief and i would kick my own ass if i wasn't me and knew that it was gonna hurt cause im such a little bitch..well im probably makin alot of no sense again..call me if you wanna hear the whole truth of how a little bitch i am. you may never wanna talk to me again after what im gonna tell you ..but i have to cause it's killin me knowin that i lied to you and more that im not with you..zach

wow did it rain alot today or what. my gosh i felt wet all day...i kinda liked it.n-e-wayz. so today i was supposed to ask out angelina but i couldn't find the time to do the one thing that i realy wanted to do today, the one thing that i was looking forward to. but i just couldn't do it during lunch cause i had to go do my spanish work that i ended up not turning in which sucks a whole lot. i ended up writing her a note during physics about how i felt today. i thought that she was pissed off at me cause she just seemed like she was, especially when she came to "the lunch spot" and i said that i had to go she looked kinda like she wanted to kick my ass.i felt really bad, especially when she didn't even want to go to the library with me. but later to find out, she wasn't. so i was thinkin about her all day but especially during 5th and 6th when i hadn't talked to her. after school we had lots of fun except that the skank wouldn't leave us alone. we had some great times trying to catch rain in our mouths and standing there in the rain just gettin wet. i then told angelina that i really had to go to the bathroom really bad. i tried to go to the boys bathroom by mr.nowes room but it wouldn't open. maybe ramona was givin phil head. oops...did i say that out loud..oh well angelina is the only one who is gonna read this anyways. so we then angelina told me to go into the girls bathroom..i really didn't want to go in there,(yeah right) but i did anyways. angelina was practically standing right next to me lookin at herself in the mirror (i hope) but i couldn't take a piss. she then asked if i wanted her to leave so that i could take a piss. and when she left i took one. isn't that weird. then we came out and once again someone was there to keep me from telling her one on one. Maria, the short shit. i love her to death though. we just talked and shit but i really wanted to ask but i couldn't. i think that when i ask her, it should just be me and her one on one so that i can say what i truly have to say, and to her face. fast forward about a couple of hours and she im'ed me tellin me that she thought that i was scared to ask her out. i told her that i wasn't scared to do it but i just didn't have the chance to do it. i told her if she wanted me to call her and ask her or if she wanted to wait till tomorrow. she said tomorrow so wait for another excitin entry tomorrow after school. Zach loves AB. hey just kiddin about feelin horny, i just thought it was funny that it said that. well call u later and im.

Well i don't have like alot of people that are gonna look at this being that this is the very first entry that i have ever put on here as well as the first time that i have ever really used this. That make absolutely no sense. but oh well. im gonna write about someone that is very special in my life. well there is this girl that im talkin to alot lately. she is one..no is the sweetest person that i have ever met and is so very special to me. well we haven't really talked alot before but lately like in the last two weeks we have become really close especially last week. i had been givin her hints that i liked her...which she didn't pick up on, at least that's what i thought which i later come to find out that she kinda knew that i liked her. well i had told her that i knew of two people that really liked her. one was this skank named Zack O. and the othere was obviously me. i ended up tellin her that it was me. she means so much to me, and as all of my very close friends are telling me, i have become a totally different person since i told her that i liked her. i feal different too. she makes me feel complete and whole as a person. she is very special to me and has no clue what she means to me. well i was gonna ask her out on friday but it was kinda hard for me to ask her after school. i wanna ask her out when we are talkin to eachother one on one in person with no one around so that i can express me true feelings and so that it will truely hit home. well we talk all of the time even till like 12 at night sometimes. we have so much in common and i plan on askin her tomorrow at school. this girl knows who she is, and i just wanted to tell her my true inner feelings. love ya Angelina. Love Zach